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Finger-lickin-nutrition…(Caution: Potty mouth ahead)

Fingerlickinnutrition? What in the heck is that?

Honestly, I’m still trying to figure that one out. I had big dreams of turning this blog into a meal prep, work out central, weight loss support, da-bomb-diggity-one-stop-shop for all of your health needs and so much more. And then…I disappeared for two years, no sorry, FOUR YEARS! I was in no position to try to tell anyone how to change their lives when I was struggling to change my own. I thought that if I wasn’t perfect, then no one would listen to me or care about the ideas I was trying to put out there into the world. Hey, there’s still no guarantee that anyone will read this, but I’m going to write it anyway. And I’m just gonna keep it real with you, I’m still trying to get my shit together.

I dreamed of telling all of you how the girl down there…

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August 2010. Still hovering around 200 lbs after regaining a few pounds.

Transformed to this girl…

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New Years 2012

 

To this health nut…and maintained…

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2013

But here I am now. This exhausted, anxious dreamer right here with exceptionally wild hair and a slight obsession with fringe…

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2017

I’ve been struggling with weight gain over the past three years and lost focus despite the fact that I know what I need to do to make “healthy living” a lifestyle. I repeat, ‘a lifestyle.’ My excuse? Hell, life just happened. I moved to a new city and got wooed by a lovely “boy”, moved in with that lovely “boy”, started a job and met some wonderful people. Years later I was diagnosed with anxiety and just simply shut down. I felt lost and forgot how to navigate through change, family issues, questionable friendships, doubting my career choices. I lost focus and started to put the weight back on. Now an engaged woman at the awesome age of 34 with belly bloat, Eustachian tube dysfunction (never knew such a thing existed) an achy foot, knee, back and fatigue… I feel like poop. I’m tired of being tired and feeling like poop. And I’m also so damn tired of thinking about food “all of the time.” EAT THIS, NOT THAT! FAT CAUSES CANCER, SUGAR CAUSES CANCER, DAIRY CAUSES DIABETES, FRUIT CAUSES DIABETES. I’ve heard it all and I feel trapped in this world of super saturated food facts and “Google-litis”.

It is absolutely exhausting to try to live within these rules that may or may not even work for you in particular.

So what happens when we flip the script and break the ‘food obsession’ cycle? Or a better question, ‘How’ do we do it?

What if food and exercise weren’t the main ingredients for weight loss or good health in general? What happens when we stop reaching for our iPad and plugging every ailment into a search engine, looking for that magic elixir that will make everything in the universe okay? What happens if we just…stop? If we do something different like go for a walk after a rough day at work instead of heading straight to the fridge the second we enter the door?

Or hey, how about doing nothing at all. At least for the next five minutes. Just chill. Let the madness pass, let the anxiety or whatever is bothering us just complete itself and then and only then do we focus on the real issue at hand (boss was an ass today, boyfriend was an ass today, you were a jerk today…whatever it may be.)

What if we feed our bodies and minds with more positive thoughts, positive habits to override the old, shitty ones? Do things that make us feel sexy and good about ourselves? Become honest with others, honest with ourselves, choose exploration over fear, challenging ourselves to go above and beyond the norm despite everyone’s expectations? What if those are the missing ingredients to happiness and great health and indirectly, weight loss? To look our core issues in the eye and tell them to f** off, we’ve got better shit to do. I’m not going to sit in self-pity and stuff my face with cookies today just because I made a mistake at work, I’m going to Zumba instead.

This is what Fingerlickinnutrition is all about. Positive, mental and spiritual nutrition for the body and soul! Nutrition beyond the plate. Honesty about our struggles and seeking fulfillment, not perfection. With a side of cake, of course (every once in a while)!

I want to explore these ideas and share my journey with you. And you, share your journeys with me.

So raise up your glasses of kombucha or red wine or hell, skip the extra glass of wine and take a bubble bath instead (Did I go to far, wine lovers?)…here’s to a

Healthy Journey!

 

 

 

****Disclaimer: I am not an expert by any means.  All of the information presented are based on my personal experiences and resources that I come across via online sources, word of mouth, and trial and error.  As with anything related to fitness, health, and your safety, consult your doctor before giving it a go.

Wishing you the best and a healthy journey!

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Did You Think I Gave Up?

 

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Just six months ago, my inner fitness goddess was a badass, tattoo embellished, hair in the wind chick on a Harley with oodles of goals and plenty of places to go.  That girl was smoking hot and unstoppable.  So she thought.  Everything changed when her Harley ran out of gas and she’d maxed out the mojo funds going too fast, too soon.  Now, she’s slowly trucking along in her 1971 baby blue Ford Pinto, still moving forward, but riding down a completely different path this time.  And that’s okay.  It’s all part of the journey.

I’ve been away from the blog and YouTube community for a few months now, but I’m still hanging around.  I have no plans of giving up on my fitness and weight loss goals anytime soon.  I just a hit a few bumps in the road and it took a little while to get back up.  And that’s not necessarily a bad thing.  Sometimes you need to fall flat on your ass before you realize exactly what you’ve been doing wrong or need to improve on.  Some sabotagers are obvious like eating an extra bowl of pasta after dinner or eating out three or four times throughout the week instead of bringing your own lunch to work, but there are those other buggers that don’t show up so easily under the flood lights or even a microscope.  I call my invisible buggers denial and anxiety.

Sometimes there are events in your life that shake you to the core, that wake up old demons and memories that you thought you’d conquered and killed off years ago.  What I’m beginning to understand is that if you don’t face them, truly confront them as oppose to going around them, they’ll follow you through every aspect of your life.  Many of us struggle with them a lot throughout our weight loss journeys and if they don’t show up in the form of self-deprecation, screaming fits, depression, or something else, it’s sure enough going to show up on the scale.

With that said, enough with the sad stuff.  It’s a new year, new day, new second.  We’ve got to make the best of it, right?  I decided that I could care less about new year’s resolutions this time around.  I’ve planned, plotted, diagrammed, and app-ed (Is that even a word?) my way through the first part of my journey and in the end it drove me crazy.  I’m opting to JUST DO IT this year and to get back on that Harley once again, but this time I’m letting my body tell me what it needs.  If it’s telling me that it’s tired at 9:30 p.m., then I’m taking my booty to bed instead of forcing it to stay up until midnight simply because I’ve convinced myself that adults don’t go to bed before 11 o’clock.  On second thought, maybe that is exactly what “responsible” adults do.  If my body’s craving a little sweetness, I’ll give it to her, but in a smaller bowl or maybe even just a spoonful.  Sounds like a good idea, but we’ll have to see how that goes.  More importantly, when I feel the stress coming on, I have to figure out a healthier way to deal with it instead of bottling it up and using food to cope.  Honestly, for me, that’s what I want to focus on more than anything this year.  Creating a healthier me from the inside out.  I know how to lose weight, workout, and make banging green juice, I just have to learn how not to let the emotional stuff make me feel like I don’t deserve to have or keep that kind of success.

So there, Folks, you have it.  My introduction back into the blogging community.  As always, I wish you all the best with your weight loss and fitness goals.

 

Healthy Journey!

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