I have to confess that I haven’t been focusing so much on losing weight these past few months. In May, I was totally stoked and energetic about cutting calories (well, not really) and getting fit with Shaun T, but then I realized that I’ve got bigger problems. My food is attacking me. At first I thought that if I made a few adjustments, ate less dairy, less cookies, less this and that, I would start to feel better. That didn’t work as well I would have liked. Folks, when you’re waking up every morning with stomach pains and there’s no pill that can make it all better, there’s really only a few ways to rectify the situation. One, start from scratch!
I did a cleanse last year from the CrazySexyDiet book by Kris Carr and had amazing results, but I had the discipline then. I wasn’t living with my soul and foodmate at the time so I wasn’t easily influenced by temptation (love you, Baldy). In other words, I was a badass-juicing-raw-vegan-gluten-and-dairy-free-running-strength-training-detoxing machine. Mentally and physically, I was in the zone. My energy levels were super high, I felt sexy, and unstoppable. Then my 21 days were up and I had a hard time keeping up the new lifestyle. I wasn’t ready to go completely vegan let alone raw vegan. Day by day, I began to slip back into my old habits. I gained all of the weight I lost and then some. Not because the detox sucked, but my inner rebel resurfaced and I wanted what I wanted, when I wanted it. Helloooooo, cupcakes!
The good thing about the cleansing program is that I kept some of those healthy habits and found that I really enjoyed juicing. I continue to juice several times a month and oddly enough, my body never looked at dairy the same. I still eat a little bit here and there, but it’s not the star of my food dreams anymore and thank goodness for that.
The point of this post is that I need to detox again. It’s possible that gluten is trying to kill me and I think the stomach pains and feeling crappy is my body’s way of saying it needs a break and soon. It’s going to be a challenge, but one worth trying. Decisions, decisions. Am I ready to do this again?