I have to confess that I haven’t been focusing so much on losing weight these past few months. In May, I was totally stoked and energetic about cutting calories (well, not really) and getting fit with Shaun T, but then I realized that I’ve got bigger problems. My food is attacking me. At first I thought that if I made a few adjustments, ate less dairy, less cookies, less this and that, I would start to feel better. That didn’t work as well I would have liked. Folks, when you’re waking up every morning with stomach pains and there’s no pill that can make it all better, there’s really only a few ways to rectify the situation. One, start from scratch!
I did a cleanse last year from the CrazySexyDiet book by Kris Carr and had amazing results, but I had the discipline then. I wasn’t living with my soul and foodmate at the time so I wasn’t easily influenced by temptation (love you, Baldy). In other words, I was a badass-juicing-raw-vegan-gluten-and-dairy-free-running-strength-training-detoxing machine. Mentally and physically, I was in the zone. My energy levels were super high, I felt sexy, and unstoppable. Then my 21 days were up and I had a hard time keeping up the new lifestyle. I wasn’t ready to go completely vegan let alone raw vegan. Day by day, I began to slip back into my old habits. I gained all of the weight I lost and then some. Not because the detox sucked, but my inner rebel resurfaced and I wanted what I wanted, when I wanted it. Helloooooo, cupcakes!
The good thing about the cleansing program is that I kept some of those healthy habits and found that I really enjoyed juicing. I continue to juice several times a month and oddly enough, my body never looked at dairy the same. I still eat a little bit here and there, but it’s not the star of my food dreams anymore and thank goodness for that.
The point of this post is that I need to detox again. It’s possible that gluten is trying to kill me and I think the stomach pains and feeling crappy is my body’s way of saying it needs a break and soon. It’s going to be a challenge, but one worth trying. Decisions, decisions. Am I ready to do this again?
I’ve been here for years. On the same journey, wishing for the same results, but allowing every little thing to become a distraction or a reason to celebrate with food. However, lately, I’ve been inspired to make a few small changes because Folks, it sucks to carry this extra weight. You know, those same twenty pounds that I vowed to lose last year are still here. Sure they’ve fluctuated from time to time, but they haven’t changed because my mindset is still the same. I’m still keeping the negative thoughts, processed foods, and despair into my life and that my friends is a recipe for redundancy. So what happens when you decide to replace that negative crap with something good? When you choose to eat more vegetables instead of bread? When you decide that eating in is so much awesomer than eating out? Well, sometimes! What happens when you decide that being healthy and feeling good is so much better than the alternative? I’m still pounding the pavement and working it out because giving up is not an option!